Hi all, well, right now i've just started my 2nd semester of college, woo! But that is not what i wanted to post. Yesterday sometime, my cousins boyfriend chose to take his own life. He shot himself in the head. I can not come to terms with whats happened, i keep over analyzing the situation. He left a note but nobody has read it yet because the police took it. I know this is SUCH a weird thing to post about but i felt the need to write about it somewhere where i might get some feedback. Since i can not get the thougth of his death out of my mind i've chosen to go to church & seeing if that will help me get through my days better. As for my cousin, i can only imagine how she feels. She saw his body as the police took her dead boyfriend out of his room. I was told that she was in such shock she didnt cry or anything, just stared. I've been feeling so horribl about whats happened. And i was wonderng if myabe someone had some inspirational words that i might be able to tell to my cousin. I mostly do not want her to blame herself or end up in a psychiatric ward. Her boyfriend was SUCH a great guy, smart, nice, had a great job and i can not think of ANY reason why he would take his life @ the young age of 22...
i dont understand.

Lots & Lots of sleepy cuddle days! & great times for photography. Also, the ability to dress warm and comfortably without looking like a bum.

8 Months! It might not seem like a long time to anybody else, but when you spend EVERY SINGLE DAY with someone, and you're my age ;], it seems like an eternity. I think i could sooooo be married! Hopefully sometime in the next few years.

So, here I sit thinking how lucky I am to have found you. People always say that when you meet the love of your life, you just know and this I know, you are the love of my life. You've taught me so much about life, honesty, forgiveness, relationships, courage, strength, happiness, and love. You are the best person to walk into my life and one I pray will never walk out. You have taught me how to make the best of each day. How to thank God each day that you were brought into my life. I know I have to work to keep you here, but whatever it takes, for you, I'll do. You've taught me a lot about honesty. You hurt me when you've lied and I hurt you. But we learned from our mistakes and our lies, we forgave each other and we moved on. You've taught me so much about relationships, you've taught me about the healthy ones, the bad ones, and the ones I should have. You've helped me sort out my life, and realize I am a worthwhile person. You've taught me more about courage and strength than anyone I know. Because there have been times when I know you were holding on by a thread. There were times when you wanted nothing more than to be held and loved. Booboo, I know these last couple of months have definitely not been the easiest. You've had to deal with a totally different and more complicated life. I know this hasn't been easy. You taught me so much about being there for someone, about pain and needing someone. I will never forget the times that you held me and i cried in your arms, i let it all go and told you i needed you. I will never feel more loved than those moments.Because that's when I realized my life was inevitably intertwined with yours. That no matter where I went from here, no matter how tough things got, we could get through them. That was when I realized I needed you and you needed me beyond what we could comprehend. That's how you taught me about true love. You've taught me what love is, what it takes, and how it feels. I can never show you just how much I love you and how much you mean to my life and my heart, but I am going to spend the rest of my life trying to show you just how much you have meant to me. And even though I know I can never even come close to explaining how deeply, truly, and completely I love you, I promise you this, I will die trying.
I love you waffle [:

I stumbled upon this site while i was looking for some scholarships. I read some of the other entries and i already know mine wasnt as good and i wont be getting this scholarship, but anhwho [: I really like seeing all the positive this site has to offer. With all of the negative in the world today it's hard to find a way to get away from the negatives, and here i can get away. Now i just need help finding money for school! >.<

Other than that, It;s super cold out here in Texas! My dogs all have sweaters on, and i brought in the neighbors dog because apparently they dont care that it is freezing outside! ugh.