What is going right in your life right now?

Hi all, well, right now i've just started my 2nd semester of college, woo! But that is not what i wanted to post. Yesterday sometime, my cousins boyfriend chose to take his own life. He shot himself in the head. I can not come to terms with whats happened, i keep over analyzing the situation. He left a note but nobody has read it yet because the police took it. I know this is SUCH a weird thing to post about but i felt the need to write about it somewhere where i might get some feedback. Since i can not get the thougth of his death out of my mind i've chosen to go to church & seeing if that will help me get through my days better. As for my cousin, i can only imagine how she feels. She saw his body as the police took her dead boyfriend out of his room. I was told that she was in such shock she didnt cry or anything, just stared. I've been feeling so horribl about whats happened. And i was wonderng if myabe someone had some inspirational words that i might be able to tell to my cousin. I mostly do not want her to blame herself or end up in a psychiatric ward. Her boyfriend was SUCH a great guy, smart, nice, had a great job and i can not think of ANY reason why he would take his life @ the young age of 22...
i dont understand.